Friday's Cell Group ...

Wei shen me ni men zong shi ren wei wo zuo de bu gou hao? wei shen me mei ci chu cuo dou shi wo de cuo? why everytyme is my fault? PeiShan say i nvr go for prayer mitin.. ya. i dun wan go. cuz the prayer mitin is i start first den now she back to cell group become she incharge.. wo bu fu! wei shen me ni, ChieHua, Roxanne, Caterine yi lai cell group jiu you dong xi zuo? wo zai cell group zhe mejiu le que shen me dou bu shi! Amelia oso say i in tis cell group so long le but i always sit at a side nvr tok to u all.. she say i nvr tok to u all.. but when i tok, hu listens? so wat i in the cell group for a veri long tyme? no one ren tong wo.. jiu lian jui xin, bi wo xiao de member dou you post, er wo que mei you.. everytyme u all leave the new fwenz aside is i go tok to them, accompany them... but do u all noe? u all say i nvr contribute.. even if i did u all oso wont noe.. PeiYun says my personality is quiet. ya. n i'm tryin veri hard to tok more n dun sit at a side.. but hu noes the effort i put in?.. PeiYun oso say no one noe wat me, PeiShan n Daryl gg through.. ya. no one noes.. n i dun expect them to noe cuz it's myfamily problem.. so wat even if they noe? they wont feel wat i'm feelin.. n they cant do anythin abt it oso.. so why let them noe? to increase their worries? or to tong qing wo? huh?..so wat my parents not wif me? i dun nid anyone's tong qing okie?! i noe Amelia n PeiShan dun lyk me.. so? if not becuz of me PeiShan oso wont be back to cell group de okie? if i noe today wil turn up lyk tis, tat tyme i wouldnt had told them i noe her.. before last yr November, all the while i was a good gal okie? i dunno why now i became bad.. n now i find PeiShan n Amelia scary.. i dunno why.. juz dun dare to go near them... sometimes, when i nid ppl to tok to, i dun even noe hu to turn to.. i'm veri lost.. it's lyk i've been thrown in a forest.. so scary, so lonely.. i dunno wat to do... why dun u all tell me wat to do since u all say i'm at fault? btw, Happi Birthday Eileen! sori tat day i really veri sad..den forgot to wish u happi birthday.. n i think u saw me cry in the middle of cell group rite? anyway, so glad tat u can join us last friday n yesterday! hope u enjoyed urself!