This week SUCK !

Haix .. Monday see Principal , Tuesday see Vive-Principal , Arul & Tina Woon .

So sianz ! Damm lahhx !!!

They say till like my fault like that !

What did i do sia ?! Like i want my family situation to be like that de !!

FUCK !

Then now Monday got Maths remedial , Tuesday & Friday got Chinese remedial ..

This Friday no school so Saturday had to go back school for Chinese remedial !!

& there's damm lot of homework !! _|_

Tomorrow got band . Friday going settle thing .. Saturday .. After remedial then see want go watch movie anot ..

Hahah ! :D Sianz . Today we 2 NA class going to Marina Barrage to fly kites .. For learning journey ..

I'm not going cause i meeting ♥ later ! :D Heehee (:

To do homework .. Hahah .

Anyway i still have alot of homework to be done ..

Now don't know why v. lazy to do homework ..

Haix .. But now cannot liao . That stupid Principal say my Mid - Year MUST PASS ALL ! What the hell ?

Hmpf >.< !!! Hmmm .Got to go liao ! Bye ♥

Haix .. At home so bored !!!

Argh ! Xanne & Nicholaus went for tuition ..

Haix .. Now stomachache & headache ...

I miss you ...

Should i believe you ?

I don't know i don't know i don't know !!!

I'm going mad soon !!!

SUCKY DAY !

Yesterday totally SUCK !

Thanks to those stupid teachers , especially ARUL !

Wasted my time went to school listened to that stupid talk & in the end never got my report book back !!! Fucker !

Then that Dinesh , watch out i tell you !

Wasted our 5 hour plus & you din't showed up AT ALL !

You think we will forgive you ?! Hah ! Fat hope !!

Remembered what you called me -- fucking bitch , and what you called us -- stupid & dumb !

So you think after all your harassment & now beg for forgiveness & we will let you off ?! Dream on !

Since you didn't want to showed up & settle nicely , then the next stop -- POLICE STATION ! & here you go - puff !

Muhahahah ! :D

Today is still okayy ? Hahs :D

Went to school early as Xanne had to reach by 6:45am !

Sianz . Then assamble at hall .. Super long ..

The whole thing till 8:20am !!! OMG !

But then lucky no Arul today !! Hahah !

Yay ! Sianz . Tomorrow still have to go school !

Because of the stupid ECG talk & PTM !!! >.<

Just now after remedial went to CWP to find Xanne & Geraldine .

Cause Geraldine meeting primary school friend .

Hahah ! :D Then chat for awhile then walk home together .

Nowadays got alot of random people which i don't know added me in FB & in MSN sia ..

What the ~ Nevermind lahhx . I'm not going to entertain those people that i don't know ..

Hahs ! :D Tomorrow had to go school .. Sad sad :'(

I don't want go lahhx ! Why make it compulsary sia ?!

Parents go can already mahhx !!! >.< !

Haix . Nevermind :( Hng !!!

Just Another Day ..

Today , didn't went to school .. -- Stomachache .

Sianz . Morning went to his house ..

Then 12pm plus came home ,on computer , trying to get the internet connected ..

& i finally did it ! Hahahs . :D

Ya , i'm happy to see him ..

But realised that got other girls went to visit him already ..

So i guess i doesn't matter huh ? .. I online , you went offline .... Haix .. Later other people visiting him ehh ..

Argh ! My stomach damm pain ! Hell !!!

Morning pain till like hell still go find him ..

Haix .. Just remembered that he's going to take out the bandage today ..

No wonder he went offline .. Dots ..

Seriously , PAIN !!! OMG ! Eeyer !!!!!

& if tomorrow the 2 idiotic teachers are going to ask MC from me , too bad , my sister never give me money till now !

What the hell !!!

No money = no money see doctor =no MC ! Hahahah :P

Xanne went to school .. Sianz .

Today got the rehearsal for the achievement thing ... LOL !

Till 5pm .. Damm bored now ..

Haix ... -.- Nevermind .

& i really don't want Dylon to go tio WenPang okayy !

Enough of fighting can !!! I don't wish to care anymore ...

& people , if you all were to msg me , please kindly tell me who you are too (: Cause my phone got no contacts okayy . :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YAP SAI JIE & ROBIN LIM KAH HENG !

First night at Xanne's house

Yesterday , there are alot of stars ..

But the one i miss , is not up in the sky ..

Neither he's with me .. I miss you ..

But i wonder will you miss me like i miss you ??

Haix .. Feel sad for your leg .. Take care uhh ...

I want see you !!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH !!!

Today , really felt like beating people !!!

Really ! Luckily that person din't provoke me much ..

I seriously wanted to hit him sia ! OMG ! Feel out of control recently .. Haix ..

Don't know what to write .. Byes ~

Die die die !!! Still not done with my homework yet ! Infact , i din't even touch it at all :X OMG . Too much homework .. Don't feel like doing it man ! Haix .. I hate it man !!! Lols . Okayy . Fine . >.< ! Hmph .. ! I'm super cold now .. Even with my jacket on .. Yesterday in the rain whole day .. -.-'" .. Haix . Yesterday , i went to blk 763 , 12th storey , then i din't know what to do .. Actually , i wanted to ... Nevermind . Then i went to playground .. I'm wet cause i'm in the rain , dude . Sit there from 5pm plus to 9pm plus .. Cried & bang my head .. Seriously , i'm super blur now .. My head still v. pain from yesterday .. Haix .

I miss you .. But you are not here . I want you ! Do you know that !!! Haix .. Baby , i miss you !!!
Loves ~

I'm really really tired le .. Just wanna leave everything behind & sleep for the rest of my life .. But i know i can't .. Haix .. I'm just a normal teenage girl okayy ? I'm human too , have feelings de okayy ?! Feel like jumping down from here anytime .. Since it's 11th storey high .. Really ..

Do you know how much i wanted you here everyday ? But you were out the whole day everyday .. Do you know how much i wanted to hug you ? But you were not here .. Do you know i'll miss you even if you don't ? Do you know i'm so scared that yesterday i cried till i fell asleep ? & i dreamt about something not good ..?
I'm like so scared & you just go like that ..

I wonder how long have we not go out since the last time ..
I wonder how long have we not hold hands & walk together since the last time ..
I wonder ... How many things have we not done together ...
I DON"T KNOW !!! ..

Haix .. I'm v. tired cause Monday , i woke up at 6am plus .. To go school for remedial . Then Afternoon meet my mei go her house 'do' homework .. 4pm plus went to meet church members to go Expo for service .. That day 11pm plus then reached home .. 12am plus then sleep . The next day , woke up at 6am plus again .. Went to school for band .. To help teach the junior as i was told to go .. Bernard gave me the wrong timing lohhx ! 8:30am he told me 8am ! But then nevermind . He brought chocolates for me ! Yay (: Heehee . 6pm plus then reached home .. Today , finally don't need to wake up soearly !!! Hooray ! But tomorrow got band . FULL DAY ! Haix ..

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Thanks Lin Lao Peh for the comment !!! Hahs (:

Yesterday went to Checkpoint with didi to see them play pool ..

Cause i don't know how to play mahhx -.-

When we reached , Jeffrey , KokCheong , ZhengHui , YuanBin reached le .

Then after awhile , they told me that Geraldine at bus-stop cause she don't know how to come ..

Hahahs . Then go fetch her lohhx .. -.-"

Then when we back the boys all go in le never tell us ! >.< !

Nevermind . Xanne , Yasmine & Jonathan came latsest .

Don't know what they do lahhx .

Reach le finding toilet . Lols . Hahahs :D

Then they play lohhx . 5pm close table .

When to the Mac to eat .

After that actually wanted to go town de but Geraldine & her sister - Jacqueline , need to meet their mother at YiShun .

So me , Xanne , Yasmin , Jonathan & didi all when to YiShun lohhx ..

Shop till 8pm plus then went home ..

Hahahs (:

& that stupid SSL ! Ask we all go Checkpoint play & he himself never go !

WTH ? Our actual venue is YiShun / ToaPayoh de lohhx ..

Nevermind ~ Hahs . :)

Okayy . Nothing much to say .

Gastric pain now .. Haix . :(

Tomorrow got chinese remedial !! 8am - 9:30am -.-

Then Tuesday got Maths remedial ( i'm not going .. ) in the morning & band in the afternoon .

Have not practised my long tones yet ..

& i'm lazy to practise & choose the 16 bars of melody to play in-front of the band ..

Hahs . (:

The Shan is my friend intro me to him de . At first i also don't know him de lohhx . He msg-ed me . Then i know is my friend de fault lohhx . Anyhow give people my number . & for that msg-ed i replied - i guess so , but sorry i can't . Okayy ! Haix . Nevermind . & we also don't know each other ..

& to XX , i know you go there is not because of me , so ? Like i care -.- . You go because she's going . Stop telling nonsense lahhx horh . I told you she not going then you don't want go . Later on they tel me she going so i tell you then you say you want go . LOLS . Ya i didn't wanted to go , so ? I don't care

& didi , i never become more unhappy ever since i know you okayy ?! If i'm really unhappy , it's not your fault & it has got nothing to do with you ! Get it ?! You also asked Xanne & Geraldine before whether i'm happier or more unhappy what .. They said happier .. Ya sorry for those fake smile . I smile because you all want me to . I smile because i know if i don't you 3 will anyhow think again . I smile because i don't want you 3 to worry me & affect you all de mood .. I'm sorry . I'll try to smile no matter i'm sad or having problems okayy ? & i guess i've regretted one thing . I guess if i hadn't ask you to call me jie when my sister called you kor , i think you wouldn't had know me & you won't be worrying so much & you will be much more happier . Cause you'll have one person less to think of . You just have too many people in your life to care . You can't probably managed everyone ..

& i seriously don't know whether i'm going to take my N & O levels anot . If i'm not taking , it's really not my fault . My mother just refused to pay it .. If you don't see me later in 2 months time , i guess you all know why bahhx ..

Now , i can even fail my chinese , i don't know what's there to pass . Guess taking the papers waste money ehh since i don't pass .. Hahah ! .. First year fail . All 2 test i fail .. Maybe i should just don't take so my mother don't need pay ehh .. Since i think she don't intend to .

S Club 7- Never had a dream come true

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you know

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you

& i had to leave behind everyone in my life . Regrets , shall not mention . I know i'm selfish . But it's because i don't want to lose any of you .. Thanks baby for everything .. & i'm sorry too .. All i want , is you .

Each day , i'm scared .. Cause March holiday have to leave you ..

Maybe i'm a nobody to you ..

But , you mean everything to me dear ..

My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
all you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you, but I can't let go
Oh yeah
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Hey ! Hahas . Today got back my E-Maths paper ..

Haix . CMI lahhx . Got 7/40 ! WTF ?! Haha .

But then i also never study .. So it makes no difference . LOL !

But yesterday got back my POA paper i'm super happy .

Cause i got 26.5/30 for it ! Yay !

Hahas :D Think wiil fail my SS , Geog , Chi [ which i hope not !!! ]

Tomorrow getting back Chi paper !

When i took the test , i opened & looked .. WTF ! All words .

It's so full of words lahhx the whole paper .

I see liao i was like - fine . Then started doing it .

The only paper that i didnt managed to sleep cause not enough time ..

Haix . Nevermind . :(

Hah . Something interesting happened today .

Shall not talk about it . (: Hahahas :D

Got to go . Bye (:

After everything had happened , i feel so stupid & useless .

I'm not a good sister i admit . Sorry ..

If you want , then it's fine . I won't force you .

If you are happy about it .. I'm okayy .

Cause i know someday , you'll be gone , too , in my life .

I suck , i know .

Anyway , today's test was HARD ! ( for Chinese ) & quite easy for Chemistry ..

When i open the Chinese paper , OMG ! It's full of words !

Then the stupid setter set so many kai fang ti ..

Then i'm weak at that lohhx !

In fact almost everybody is weak at that okayy !

Shit . Sure fail .

Then Chem was okayy . I used 30 mins to do the paper & went to sleep .

Heehee (: Happily sleeping when al of the sudden tha bloody Sec 2 Character's student shouted !

Asshole ! No teacher can shout arh ?! CB .

My bloody sister's class . Comfirm is Joanne & her shouting lohhx !

Other people got test lehhx ! Tomorrow going screw then uhh . Hng ! :(

Haix . Tomorrow Maths & Physics paper .

Maths = sure die . Cause i don't listen in that idiotic Vijay's class .

Not at all okayy . I'm rather drawing , sleeping or playing my Pokemon game in my phone .

Heehee :D Ya . Anyway , i don't understand his accent at all please ~

But then , Physics okayy . Clement Lee wants me go back to band 1 .

Haiyo . Haha . But now i like Goh Chee Wee's class more .

Cause he release on time !

Every Physics lessons is right before recess .

& he'll release us on time man !

Went the bells goes , we go ! Hooray !! (:

Hahs . Shall stop here . Bye ! (:

M2M - Don't Say You Love Me

Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you said you love me
What's that about?

Verse 2:
You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...

CHORUS:
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Verse 3:
Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...

CHORUS

BRIDGE:
oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na, na, na, na
oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me baby...

Baby don't say love me, baby
Give me some time...

M2M - Pretty Boy

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

BRIDGE
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

Hey ! Today had 2 Common Test . First was Social Studies . I din't study at all . I went to school & borrowed from Jeffrey his notes & scan through .. I totally gave up on Humanities . I just so super weak at it . An 1 hour paper .. Used 50 mins on the SBQ ! WTH ?! Then left 10 mins i do the SEQ .. >.< Anyway , i din't study what . Lols . Totally flunk it . Normal lesson till recess afterwards . After recess , English Common Test . Not bad eh . It was quite okayy .. Hmm .. Yup . Went home after that . On com till now lohhx . Later going to CG .. Drag Xanne along . Cause it's super near her house . She just had to go up to 7th storey . Cause today CG at Lucas' house . It's a combined CG with Lucas' brother's CG . Just now in school me . Xanne & Geraldine went outside to the General Office to take a look at the locker that school is planning to buy & rent it to us students . It's like so small lohhx . & it's damm fucking expensive ! For 7 months , we had to pay $27.50 ! & this includes the lock which cost $10 alone !!! _l_ . Super expensive lahhx ! Somemore the school counted the month June in the 7 month also ! WTF ? June no school still had to pay ??? Rediculous ! Hpmf . :( ! But we 3 decided to share it . So we each had to pay $9.30 . Okayy lahhx . Can put things . Especially heavy books . :D Hahs . Waiting for time to pass now .. Meeting Xanne 6:45pm outside her house then go up together . Haix . LingShuang don't want go .. Sad sad . :( . She ask me go de lohhx ! TeyLingShuang ! Right ?! Hahs . (: Okayy . Shall end here . Bye people !!

Yay ! Today no Arul & Vijay ! Woohoo !!! :D Hahas (: Tomorrow also ! Cause they went to Bintan with the Sec 2 technical . Happy sia ! Hah . Today morning de prize giving v. paiseh lohhx ! Jeffrey told me say Miss Ho say no need to give . Then Miss Ho ask why never give . Then we still give wrong somemore ! LOL ! :l Sianz . But it went okayy ? Hahas . :$ Stupid Vijay ! One day dont give homeork cannot uhh ?! Out of Singapore still give us homework !!! WTH !

Hihi !! It has been a long time since i post .. Ya ? Haha . Went to church last Saturday . It was great ! I cried when singing the worship song .. Pastor Kong preached about First love - God . I felt so good ! (: Then i went off with Chels , LingShuang , YanWee & other people after service .. Went home lohhx . Also nothing to do .. Hahas . & i'm so happy that my Chem Clas Test 2 got 22/25 !! Yay ! :D But today got back my Physics Class Test 2 .. Hmm ... 10/25 .. Sad . It's all because i write wrong formular ! WTH ?! Times i go put divide there . Then all wrong ! Haix . Work harder for Common Test bahhx . :( & Mr Goh bluff me again ! Say i only got 6/25 ! Scare me !! The other time he say i got 8/15 , but then i got 11/15 lohhx . Never trust Mr Goh Chee Wee again !!! Hahas . (: Today after school went home bath & went to meet Geraldine & Xanne to go CWP cause that Geraldine wants to take handphone .. Lol . Go there just to accompany her take phone .. Stupid right ? Hahas . Later going to do homework .. Got no idea what to write lehhx .. Haix . & did i lost my file again ? This time , i can't find my POA file !! Shit ! Tomorrow file check ! Damm it ! & i lost my English file ! Monday file check !!! What the . How sia ? & just now my mother called . Ya she never give me money my fault ! She never give then i lend fron Xanne my fault ?! Why are adults so unreasonable ?! Say i used up my money v. fast .. Eh , i only got $ 20 for CNY okayy ! & she never even give me red packet also lahhx ! Talk so much . Fuck sia . Still ask me go work for one week during the March holidays .. Please lahhx horh . I got remedials & CCA to handle lahhx horh . Fuck . Damm pissed off . -.- . Haix . Can do what ? Everything i do is never right . Whatever i do , it has never been right before .. Ya my fault lahx okayy ! I go die lahhx can ? I guess only my sisters , brothers , schoolmates & friends will care if i die ... Whatever ~ Die also good . At least , i wont be blamed anymore .. Anyway , tomorrow suppose to help Miss Ho for the morning assembly de prize presentation .. Must go school early . I'm so surprised when she msg me just now . I was like ' huh ? me ? sure bo ??? ' . But then nevermind . I'm happy about it . Ask YongJi to help me reply her . Cause my phone no money .. Ohh , sianz . Tomorrow have to go see AM .. Haix . Go lohhx . Can do what ? At most don't take exams only mahhx . -.- . Lols . Hahs :P . Better . No need study ... Hah ! Just now Maths class me & Xanne took handphone out & Joseph Tan walk past saw us using then we faster keep & look infront & pretend never see him . Hahas . :D Then he call us to pay attention & put our bags down . We din't even care lohhx . Anyway i not first time kanna caught using phone .. Karen Tan also catch me before & some other random teachers also . LOL ! Hah ! :D Hmm . It seems to be a long post uhh ? Hah . Okayy . Will post again . BYE ! (: